I dunno what the hell is wrong. I have too many things to think about and not enough head room and emotions to compensate. I am afraid of being gullible too and that does not help. I have always been one not to think about what others think but it is always harder to do such a thing when you have a very much loved one seemingly talking about you to others that you cannot help but care. Then there are all the other twisted things that are seemingly going on with this person and it is driving me mad.
On another note, my house stinks and I have no clue why. I have cleaned and cleaned more and alas have not found where the mysterious smell is comming from. Everyone i ask tells me that my house does not stink and I do not believe them. Is it not a friend's job to try and make you feel better when you think something is amiss? SO I think that is what they are doing. Trying to be polite.
I really, really want to hurry up and move. The stillness that I have in my life right now is not amusing or relaxing. It is if I am just waiting and I cannot do anything because all has stood still till the move. Hence my relationship is sucking. I guess it is to make the wait for the move more exciting. I am bored and I have felt a whole lot of crappy. Today is better though already and that is a big thing. I am going to go to the park with the monsters. Should be fun. I hope it is not too hot and humid.
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