Hotel Living and No Cable

Well I just completed 5 days of living in a hotel room and I can tell you I am not looking forward to it when we get to Germany. Tonnight we will be staying at a good friends house (hence the internets). I think I gained the nasty wieght I had lost from all the salty no good food I have been eating recentlty. I am tired and I do not like my children at teh moment. Having not a lot to do and no money helps that bit out too. We get on the plane tommorow. I am still in the process of getting our things packed and organized. I hate this laptop so I must depart. Hope to be back with the internets soon.

The final countdown

Well not really. We will have no phone or cable for awhile and that should prove entertaining. We go to temp housing tommorow and then it is cleaning time and more packing for me and then get all of our crap done and we leave. I am tired just thinking about it. Just in case you are wondering about the image.. I am too. I love myconfinedspace.com , gives me a lot of down time for my brain.

Woot! and other expressions

Alright our passports are here so it is definately go time for us. I am extremely happy about it. Wow we will be leaving in a little over a week. That is crazy. I have been cleaning all our crap out and I need more oomph. One more day and I will not have the phone or the internet at my disposal for a few. Should be fun. Good times even. I am going to miss my family and friends so much. I have some worries, but not too many. I am hoping to see my oldest baby this Christmas so I am hoping I will not miss him too badly. It has been tough enough without him all the time for the last couple of years and I am hoping he understands and knows how much I love him and that i will be there forever for him. Uhg! Getting sappy now so I must leave.

Moving is Such a Pain in the Ass

The time is fast approaching to when I will leave the USA and go on a new adventure to another country for the next 3 years and maybe longer. I am getting that excitement going again and all the crap that I had going on in my head has deminished. YAY for me. Now I just have to keep it that way and not let the crazies sneak up in my head again. I hate the crazies. You get all paranoid and your belly starts churning along with your head aching. I am hoping that it will be one of the last time it will happen to me and I hope that next time I can control all of the feelings that I have built p inside of me. I blame a lot of outside help for this one but I do know I am the only one who can do anything about it and take care of it. No ones fault but my own. This is a new and beautiful week and on Wednesday the movers will start comming and packing and we will be going away. A new life and a new adventure and a lot to explore and get lost in. Now i just need a bigger memory card for my digital cam and all should be right with the world. Now I must get the dressing done and start the day. BTW i just want to express that when you are in a long commited relationship and you fight, the make up sex is awesome.

Too much in the brain meats

I dunno what the hell is wrong. I have too many things to think about and not enough head room and emotions to compensate. I am afraid of being gullible too and that does not help. I have always been one not to think about what others think but it is always harder to do such a thing when you have a very much loved one seemingly talking about you to others that you cannot help but care. Then there are all the other twisted things that are seemingly going on with this person and it is driving me mad.

On another note, my house stinks and I have no clue why. I have cleaned and cleaned more and alas have not found where the mysterious smell is comming from. Everyone i ask tells me that my house does not stink and I do not believe them. Is it not a friend's job to try and make you feel better when you think something is amiss? SO I think that is what they are doing. Trying to be polite.

I really, really want to hurry up and move. The stillness that I have in my life right now is not amusing or relaxing. It is if I am just waiting and I cannot do anything because all has stood still till the move. Hence my relationship is sucking. I guess it is to make the wait for the move more exciting. I am bored and I have felt a whole lot of crappy. Today is better though already and that is a big thing. I am going to go to the park with the monsters. Should be fun. I hope it is not too hot and humid.